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Life Is Not A Race

Tabi basa and greetings everyone! How was your day? I hope you are doing fine despite the ever-increasing case of COVID-19 now, especially when you are residing at Peninsular Malaysia. For Malaysians, that is always the struggle that we will not be able to get away from anytime soon. Let’s call it our war (Boku no Senshou). As of 11 Aug 2021, there is a huge number of COVID cases in Malaysia. At 1.3 million, it is approximately 4.0%, a figure that’s quite high, even higher than India’s case in terms of COVID-19 percentage. That is scary. Even worse, there are some local “treasonists” who has the balls to sell fake COVID-19 certificate to Malaysian citizens. Their business idea seems to be out of this world, risking general’s health in order to gain extra money. For as low as RM200 (47 USD), you put aside your integrity and gave others a false sense of security? That’s lunatic.

Latest COVID-19 case.
This is madness. Insider can help to adjust MySejahtera status for as low as RM200. Way to go, Treasonist.

Setting aside COVID-19 case in Malaysia, one of the thing that I want to talk about today is regarding life’s philosophy, where I always find it fascinating to be able to hear more inspirational words from other authors, especially that talks about improving lives.

One of it is definitely the notion that “Life Is Not A Race”.

Life Is Not a Race

One of the thing that I commonly see among my circle is that they are constantly thinking that life is a race. I find it sad to see man/woman with high potential for the future but jeopardise their potential by not doing what’s required. Most of the youngsters are trend-hoppers, jumping from one trend to another. I am guilty of this as well, because like it or not, peer pressure is always there.

But in my silence (I’m doing silent retreat), I realised that if we are not happy with what we are now, we cannot be happy with whatever we posses.

If we are not happy with our present, we’ll never find happiness in the future.

But why is this happening?

It could be probably due to the accumulation of disappointment that we receive up until now, as of the past is still haunting us. Call it a joke, it happens to some bloke. To be able to handle disappointment would be a superpower for many of us. We are not well-equipped to handle rejection, at least that’s what our brain wants to hear.

A lot of our problem stems from our inability to be still, mentally. You can be sitting quietly in an empty room for hours, but if your brain is still erratic, you can’t find peace.

It all boils down to your ability to the harsh reality of life, and not being overly optimistic because down along the line something undesirable will definitely happen.

According to the famous Murphy’s Law, “Anything that can go wrong, will go wrong”.

Anything that can go wrong, will go wrong.

CAPT ED MURPHY

The law’s namesake was Capt. Ed Murphy, a development engineer from Wright Field Aircraft Lab (Source: Bloch, Arthur (1980 edition). Murphy’s Law, and Other Reasons Why Things Go WRONG,).

Because of this, things might happen no matter how good we are in preparing to avoid it. As long as there is percentage of probability, no matter how small, it might happen.

But so is happiness. But, then again, why is it so difficult to improve our lives?

For me, one of the way to improve lives is through Stoicism philosophy.

What is Stoic?

According to Merriam-Webster, the definition of stoic are as follows:
1. Capitalized : a member of a school of philosophy founded by Zeno of Citium about 300 b.c. holding that the wise man should be free from passion, unmoved by joy or grief, and submissive to natural law.
2. one apparently or professedly indifferent to pleasure or pain

Synonyms: forbearing, long-suffering, patient, tolerant, uncomplaining
Antonyms: complaining, fed up, impatient, kvetching, kvetchy, protesting

I first heard about this philosophy from Eric Kim, a photographer from America. You can read more about his view of stoicism here.

Why Stoic?

When it comes to Stoicism, this person comes to mind – Ryan Holiday. He is the writer of Daily Stoic. You can follow him here (personal Instagram) or at his famous Daily Stoic Instagram account. From Daily Stoic page, you can get your daily dose of Stoicism where for me, it is a good daily reminder and it provides me with something to think about for the rest of the day.

Aspiring to be a stoic person.

In short, Stoicism teaches us that, before we try to control events, we have to control ourselves first. 

Yes, that’s right. Often we think that we are not in control of our lives, and we are living in an autopilot mode. That is actually not true. We are holding the flight stick of our life. Sometimes, we forgot, due to various reasons.

Our life is dynamic, and we are living in a turbulence. Our reality and our ideals are not aligned to one another. If we can calibrate our expectations to meet our reality, then we will be much happier with our lives. Sadly, that is not the case to most of us.

Our brain are wired to accept only the best but forgot that we are not a perfect being ourselves. It’s like boys expecting a perfect, Barbie-like spouse when they are not even close to look like Ken.

Having a passion in our life is important because we need to have a locus in our life. We need to identify it as early as we can so that we can leverage on time that we have. We can’t play short term gain because like Malcolm Gladwell said, we need to have at least spent 10,000hours of intensive practice to be a good in something, whatever it is. 10,000 hours, divided into 8 hours per day, is equivalent to 3.5 years. Or maybe more, depending on your commitment level. Some are better than the other, but that is dependent on their physical advantage. People will always use the word “talent” to someone who is better than the other, but little did we know, most of the time, it is down to their effort, or how bad they want it.

One of the most profound thing that I heard is “You can’t fix internal issues with external accomplishments”, a quote by Ryan Holiday, the writer of Daily Stoic. You can follow him at Instagram for more inspirational quotes.

Don’t Take Things Personally

Your value does not decrease just because someone’s unable to see your worth.

Usually we take things personally because of our ego and our desire to be right. Our brain is not wired to accept the fact that it is lacking in so many ways.

To deal with these, we need to look at their intention and try to understand where they are coming from, for example, deep down, they want to be right, or have something in mind for the whole day.

Improvement-wise, our negative beliefs, we take things personally because we know that we have some truth in it. Our childhood has an effect on this.

The account that engages the most with our limbic brain will have the most following. Don’t believe me? Have a look at those popular images at Tik Tok or Instagram. They are eerily having the same pattern. In social media, previously it was chronologically-arranged, and now it is done by using algorithm. Usually the minorities are being left out. That is why, if you want to pioneer something for a long run, don’t put your base in Social Media, It’s like building with sand as its foundation.

For your own good, learn to walk away when you think you are not being appreciated much. I wish I knew this when I was younger. 20s was a decade of experiment, and 30s is when you know what you want in life.

The Wise and Foolish Builder

24 “Therefore everyone who hears these words of mine and puts them into practice is like a wise man who built his house on the rock. 25 The rain came down, the streams rose, and the winds blew and beat against that house; yet it did not fall, because it had its foundation on the rock. 26 But everyone who hears these words of mine and does not put them into practice is like a foolish man who built his house on sand. 27 The rain came down, the streams rose, and the winds blew and beat against that house, and it fell with a great crash.”

Matthew 7:24-27

If you want whatever that you are building last, do it on a solid foundation. Not temporary trend like Tik Tok or Vine, or even Facebook and Twitter. These things will evolve, and new form of platform will take place.

The best time to be invested is in something that will give you a return in the long term. Public speaking, writing ability, guitar-playing, singing, photography mastery – those are the things that will pay in the long run. Don’t play short term. Aim for long term. I had my time experimenting on mobile games such as Mobile Legend: Bang Bang and League of Legends: Wild Rift just to find out that those things are not suit for me. Firstly, they consume a lot of time, and with the right community, you are hooked by its promise of endless dopamine surge. But what does it cost you? Time, sleep, energy, death of a dream et cetera. Even the 15 seconds video of TikTok actually took a lot of time to prepare, don’t underestimate it.

In essence, time is gold.

Epilogue

From the stories that I have written here, from Life Is Not A Race, to Stoicism and finally Not Taking Things Personally, I hope I have given to you something to ponder upon and ultimately, improving your life.

Tukang Rantek,
Claudius

Note: “Tukang Rantek” means photographer in Bidayuh language.

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Sabah Beauty: Sumandak Olumis

Tabi basa semua! Pada kebiasannya, saya akan berkongsi cerita-cerita daripada Bumi Kenyalang, namun pada hari ini ada istimewa sedikit, iaitu berkenaan sumandak dari Negeri Di Bawah Bayu, Sabah. Bagi yang tidak tahu, sumandak adalah perkataan Kadazan-Dusun yang membawa maksud “gadis”, dan “olumis” pula maksudnya cantik.

Pertama kali saya jumpa sumandak Sabah adalah semasa saya belajar di Labuan. Dari sana juga saya belajar lagu Sayang Kinabalu. Macam dalam lirik lagu itu, sumandak sumandak pun ramai menunggu, tapi bukannya menari lenggang sumayau, tapi tunggu kawan di kantin dekat Blok C & D. Kebanyakan mereka berkulit putih-putih. Tidak payah kamu cari orang Korea. Pergi saja kamu cari sumandak Sabah. Cantik-cantik, berkulit putih, berperwatakan menarik dan kebanyakkannya “wife-material”.

Teringat kawan-kawan saya, sekali melihat mereka banyak yang berkulit putih melepak, terus jatuh hati. Banyak juga yang kapel sama sumandak-sumandak masa itu. Pura-pura rajin ikut “gathering” di KML, padahal mau mengurat sumandak. Duduk di belakang sebab mau “scan” yang cantik moleh. Nah, bocor sudah rahsia kamu.

Satu lagi yang saya perasan, kebanyakkan sumandak-sumandak Sabah ini pandai nyanyi. Ada juga yang bilang, cara-cara sumandak Sabah bercakap seksi, bikin jantung bergagar. Yang paling kurang pun masih boleh bawa lagu Beyonce. Yang paling power ni balik balik menang battle of the band atau pertandingan nyanyian. Rupanya di Sabah memang terkenal dengan budaya nyanyian. Asal musim Kaamatan, mesti ada pertandingan nyanyian yang dikenali dengan nama Sugandoi.

Pertandingan ratu cantik Kaamatan pula digelar Unduk Ngadau, sempena memperingati semangat Huminodun, gadis sempurna dari aspek hati, minda dan semangat. Perkataan “Unduk Ngadau” berasal dari perkataan “runduk tadau” yang membawa maksud “gadis yang dimahkotakan sinaran cahaya matahari”. Dikatakan, selepas Huminodun dikorbankan oleh Kinoingan, selepas tujuh hari Unduk Ngadau muncul dari “kakanan” dan dipercayai sebagai jelmaan semangat Huminodun. Unduk Ngadau juga dikatakan sebagai orang yang pertama mengajar Bobohizan mentera yang diamalkan sehingga sekarang. Setiap tahun, akan ada pertandingan Unduk Ngadau di Sabah, bermula dari peringkat daerah sehingga ke peringkat akhir, iaitu peringkat negeri. Semenjak pertandingan Unduk Ngadau diadakan pada 1960, daerah Penampang telah menang 15 daripada 59 pertandingan, diikuti oleh Inanam (7 kali). KK, Papar & Tanjung Aru pula telah masing-masing menang 5 kali. Francisca Ester Nain dari Karambunai adalah Unduk Ngadau pada masa sekarang. Dia telah dimahkotakan oleh Hosiani Keewon @ Hosiani James Jaimis dari Inanam pada Unduk Ngadau 2019 tanggal 31 Mei 31, 2019, di Dewan Hongkod Koisaan, Kadazan-Dusun Cultural Association (KDCA), Penampang.

2020 tiada Unduk Ngadau kerana COVID-19. Pada tahun 2021 pula bertemakan “Kaamatan Aiso Wolit Montok Piompunan om Pibabasan” (Kaamatan Tanpa Sempadan Demi Pendamaian dan Keamanan) yang bersesuaian dengan norma baharu kita. Banyak cerita menarik sepanjang Unduk Ngadau “Borderless”. Yang paling terkenal adalah kisah bapa si Tracie Unduk Ngdau Tambunan, Encik Sinidol,  yang post “Good Luck to my sweetheart for your competition tomorrow” (versi pendek). Punya banyak jejaka-jejaka komen di sana, berharap dapat perhatian si angkol dan Tracie yang dikatakan mirip Mira Filzah. Namun, tiga hari lepas, jejaka-jejaka itu kecewa kerana melihat si Tracie post gambar dia, mak dia dengan Mayon, Mr Kaamatan 2017, yang banyak orang percaya “bakal” dia. Kita hening sejenak untuk berdoa buat tanakwagu (lelaki dalam Kadazan-Dusun) yang kecewa. Walau apapun, selamat maju jaya buat peserta-peserta peringkat akhir Unduk Ngadau 2021.

Di Sabah, tidak wujud isu perkauman kerana seperti di Sarawak, mereka terdiri daripada lebih daripada bangsa yang hidup harmoni bersama-sama. Yang besar sekali adalah kumpulan orang Kadazan-Dusun. Pakaian tradisional orang Dusun juga berbeza-beza mengikut kawasan.

Perkahwinan campur pun biasa juga dilihat di Sabah. Yang pasti, kalau berani kahwin dengan sumandak-sumandak, tidak kisah lah dari daerah mana, jangan takut kalau berbicara soal berian sama bakal mentua. Ok tompinai?

Kalau ada mau tambah, taip saja di ruangan komen. Itu saja saya mau cerita ini kali. Sekian, teima kasih.

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Tabi basa everybody! Today’s sharing is about stories from Land Below The Wind, Sabah. For your info, “sumandak” means girls, and “olumis” means beautiful. Sumandak olumis means beautiful girl.

First time I met sumandak Sabah is when I studied at Labuan. From there I learned about Sayang Kinabalu’s song. Just like in its lyrics, sumandaks are waiting, not dancing, but waiting for their friends at the cantin near Block C & D of KML. Most of them are fair-skinned. There is no need for you to look for Korean maidens. Just look for sumandak Sabah. Beautiful, fair-skinned, good attitude and mostly are wife-material.

I still remember my friends, once they laid their eyes upon these maidens, they fall in love. A lot of them are in a relationship with sumandaks when they are in KML. They pretend to actively joining fellowship gathering, but actually they want to win sumandak. They sat at the back because they want to scan the best ones. Ooops, the secret is out.

Another thing that I noticed is most of these sumandaks are a good singer. Some say that their voice is sexy and can make your heart race. The least of them still can sing Beyonce’s song. The best one of them will bag winnings from battle of the band and singing competition. I found out that at Sabah, singing is part of their culture. During Kaamatan, there is a singing competition called Sugandoi.

Their beauty pageant is called Unduk Ngadau, in honour of the spirit of Huminodun, the girl who is beautiful in heart, mind and spirit. The word “Unduk Ngadau” originates from the word “runduk tadau: that means “the girl who is crowned with sunlight”. It is said after Huminodun was sacrificed to Kinoingan, seven days after that, Unduk Ngadau appears from “kakanan” and believed to be the incarnation of Huminodun. Unduk Ngadau also is said to be the first person to teach Bobohizan the spells & rites that is being used until now. Every year, there will be an Unduk Ngadau at Sabah, from district level until the final state level. There, you will the best and the most beautiful sumandaks all around Sabah compete for the title Unduk Ngadau. Historically, since the first Unduk Ngadau competition in 1960, Penampang district have won 15 out of 59 competitions, followed by Inanam (7 times). 5 times winning are shared between KK, Papar & Tanjung Aru. Francisca Ester Nain of Karambunai is the current Unduk Ngadau. She was crowned by Hosiani Keewon @ Hosiani James Jaimis of Inanam at the Unduk Ngadau 2019 on May 31, 2019, in Hongkod Koisaan Hall, Kadazan-Dusun Cultural Association (KDCA), Penampang.

For 2020, there was no Unduk Ngadau. However, in 2021, the theme is ‘Borderless Kaamatan for Reconciliation and Peace’ (Kaamatan Aiso Wolit Montok Piompunan om Pibabasan). There was a lot of funny stories happening throughout the competition. One of the most memorable thing happening and went viral is when Mr Sinidol, father of Tambunan Unduk Ngadau Tracie, Mira Filzah lookalike, wish her good luck to my sweet heart for your competition tomorrow (short version). There is a lot of bachelors (or not) commented at the comment section, all trying their luck to win her father’s heart. But just short 3 days ago, these men were devastated when Tracie posted a picture of her, her mother and Mayon, Mr Kaamatan 2017, what many believed to be her future husband. A moment of silence to the fallen “tanakwagus”. Anyway, wish all the best to the Unduk Ngadau reps 2021.

Just like in Sarawak, Sabah has no racial issue because there is also a lot of races that live harmoniously with one another. Mixed-marriages is commonly seen in Sabah. One thing for sure, if you want to get married to a sumandak, doesn’t care from which district, don’t be afraid when it comes to talk about dowry with your future in-laws. Ok tompinai?

That’s all I want to share today. If you have anything to add, just write down in comment section below. Thank you!

p.s. Ponsikou busski tu nakawi kou mambasa ti penulisan ku

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Tukang Rantek,
Claudius

Claudius is a Miri-based Boudoir & Portrait Photographer, from Kpg Piching, Serian.
“Tukang Rantek” means photographer in Piching dialect.

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1. Freddy Au Photography
2. Lydia “Bulan” Pius
3. Christy Vyra James & friends
4. Ivy Elora George
5. Fenella Carmen
6. Lydia Be Kotiu
7. Shelvee Eve Bidu
8. Patricia Elsa
9. Melinda Louis
10. Eva Sebastian
11. Avie Jaine
12. Didie Phang
13. Ledesma Steven

In Loving Memory of Babai

Introduction

Tabi basa and greetings everyone! When there is life, there is death. We are taught to celebrate life, but we are not openly taught to embrace death because it’s saddening and bring grief and despair to the affected family, especially when the deceased is someone’s significant others; husband or wife, or even a life companion.

Babai

In this post, I’d like to write about the funeral of my late grandfather, or his nickname “Babai”, which means grandfather in Bidayuh Siburan/Padawan/Bau, instead of “babeh” or “babuk” in Bidayuh Serian. Partly this is because I want to remember the final celebration of life that we had with him.

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Veveonah, 2 MPs & Internet Coverage Issue at Sabah & Sarawak

Terjemahan Ke Dalam Bahasa Malaysia Atas Permintaan Pembaca

Cuba pembaca bayangkan. Anak/adik/sepupu perempuan anda yang masih berusia 18 tahun, menghadapi kesukaran untuk memperoleh akses internet. Tanpa berputus asa, dia telah mencari jalan agar dapat berpaut kepada rangkaian internet bagi menghadapi peperiksaan yang akan menjelang tiba. Usaha dia telah didokumentasi dan dimuat naik di laman YouTube pada 13 Jun (exam beliau 9-12 Jun). Video tersebut telah menjadi tular di alam maya, dan mendapat perhatian netizen di seluruh dunia. Itulah yang terjadi kepada saudari Veveonah Mosibin, seorang pelajar Universiti Malaysia Sabah (UMS). Video beliau yang berjudul “24 Hours on Tree | Challenge” (Cabaran 24 jam di atas pokok) mendorong Kumpulan TM untuk menaiktaraf Pusat Internet di Kampung Pinggan-Pinggan, Pitasc Sabah, yang terdekat kepada kampung Veve. Kampung beliau hanyalah 140 km dari Kota Kinabalu, namun mengambil masa 3 jam menggunakan kenderaan pacuan 4 roda untuk dikunjungi. Internet yang laju ini sudah tentunya menggembirakan warga Pitas.

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Depression and Self-Liberation in Photography

Tabi basa and greetings family and friends,

In the recent times, often we heard, seen and read about depression. Before that, it is quite common for us to hear people talk about it and dis it as if it is a laughing matter. I am pretty sure you also have your experiences dealing with such negative emotions. I have not dealt with depression yet, and I am lying if I said I understand how it exactly feels.  

Crying Junior

Definition of Depression

From American Psychiatric Association’s website, depression (major depressive disorder) is a common and serious medical illness that negatively affect how you feel, they way you feel and how you act. It can cause sadness and / or loss of interest in activities once enjoyed. It also can lead into various emotional and physical problems and can decrease a person’s ability to function at work and at home.

The symptom includes:

  • Feeling sad or having a depressed mood
  • Loss of interest in activities once enjoyed
  • Changes in appetite – weight loss or gain unrelated to dieting
  • Trouble sleeping or sleeping too much
  • Increased fatigue or loss of energy
  • Feeling worthless
  • Increase in purposeless activitiy
  • Difficulty thinking, concentrating or making decisions
  • Thoughts of death or suicide

As you can see from the lists, it is quite severe, especially the thoughts of suicide. As you can see in the movie Joker, various mishappening in his life turns him into society-hating person, that stays in the shadows and unknown, and that is his greatest weapon against Batman in the future.

Don’t confuse depression and sadness or grief because the latter are a normal emotional cycle in human, but depression is not. Even if that person is living the ideal situation may even succumb to this, as they are facing a threat and hazard unseen to us – the price to be paid for fame. The more famous you are, the more important is the your emotional strength.

Talking about this, there are time where I feel so unmotivated for no particular reason, where I just feel like lying in my bed, listening to Fur Elise all day. I believe this is quite common, except it came in a different form or activities. I would imagine a singer would want to scream their lungs out at studio when they feel frustrated or depressed. Or runner, just ran until they are tired across the field.

Could there be a solution for this?  

Disclaimer: whatever that is written here is by no means absolute cure or prevention for depression. The words written following this are only the opinion of Claudius Weson, and should be taken as a layman's point of view, not a professional in field psychology.

Photography, Sense of Purpose & Self-Liberation

For me, this one is dealt with in a way that I treat photography as my main outlet to express myself, to tell the stories that I am unable to tell in words, and once I have done that, I express it in words. I like blogging, mainly because I can write things that I don’t get to talk in my everyday conversation. Not everyone that I know wants to talk to the level that I expect them to be. So, for me, I just keep it to myself, type it out here and post it. Who knows it might help someone out there.

I also have a passion in expressing myself, which is why I loved to join activities such as public speaking, debate, battle of the band and latest is photography and blogging.  Back then, adrenaline was running wild, unchecked, and therefore I have to channel it somewhere. Being heartbroken, rejected few times, I use that frustration to create songs, such as Dayung Salau, Buran, I Don’t Care and our Taruh Dari’s (3D) main song, Headhunters of Hornbill Land. Duirng that time, I thought that we can go on as a team. However, that honeymoon period did not last and we have to separate after we finished our schooling (I probably will write about that in a next post).

High-School Rocker

That is also why I come with my own brand, Tukang Rantek. Why? It makes me joyful inside when people call me Tukang Rantek, which makes me excited to go on day to day life. Back in my village also people started to call me Tukang Rantek, like yesterday when I go to church of Pichin, Holy Trinity Church.

The sense of purpose comes in the form of competing with myself. I have quit competing with everyone else because I don’t like where it is heading. Some people don’t mind sacrificing relationship just so that they can win extra job, extra medal, extra recognition and even extra acknowledgement. If that “extra” means I go home unsatisfied with my art, but expressing in the way I become a crowd-pleaser or even social media victim, I rather go without anything but being happy in whatever art that I create. If I am comparing myself to other person’s current state, I am insulting my own potential. Why? I can achieve so much more if I become my own ally, creating the art that pleases both myself and my inner self.

I also do acknowledge that my elders are getting older, therefore I decided to create as much image when I am back at my hometown because no amount of money or regret can give me back that opportunity once I have lost it. How many times have you thought about this in your own family?

Seize the day.

I am Award-less Photographer

Again, this is another source frustration, left unchecked, it can become another source of depression. For me, being a Leica user for few years already, it is not uncommon for me to dream about winning Leica Oskar Barnack Award (LOBA), the most prestigious award for Leica society. Only one photographer can win this award every year. What happens to the rest of the photographer if they don’t win any of it? Did they just lost their puspose in life? Of course not; different photographer has a different purpose. For me, I want to create the best image. I strive for this goal in whatever situation that I am in. In that sense, I have a purpose. I further define it to create the best image in whatever situation I am in, given the poor lighting condition, given the gear I am using. For me, using Noctilux would be too easy because I can just blow the background away thanks to its atomic bokeh and leaving the subject intact. That is why I use Summicron recently, be it the first or the latest one. I like to make it difficult for me to capture the image, so that I can learn to control my M better.

In my off day, I like to call myself family photojournalist, capturing the day-to-day actitvities of my family. Sounds trivial, but few years down the road, we will miss these times, the time when the little one is no longer little.

Whether you realise it or not, each photographer reflects their own personality and emotion in the images that they created. If you are sad, you tend to create an image of sad people, and if you are happy, you tend to create an image of happy people. Therefore, before any event, it is better for you to find a good reason to be happy. Due to the emotional load (dealing with peoples) and time constraint, not many wants to be a wedding photographer. But for those who loves all of those, they really thrive in it. That brings us to the next topic.  

How about Money?

This one is tricky because for some people, photography is the way for them to make money. If they can’t make money, they cannot provide necessities for their family. When that comes, whether they like it or not, they have to find another sources of income, trading hours for money, which is unsustainable.

Dio & Anis’s wedding reception.

From my conversation with some of the established photographers, they don’t rely solely on photography as their main source of income. They take commissions from every camera gears that they sold, they organise courses. Not surprisingly, Youtube is also part of their income, especially if you are creating a good, niche content. You also can always be part of the bigger community of  photography, where you can become the second photographer for their job, provided they want your assistance and they trust in your ability to assist them. 

Liberate Yourself From Bondage Called Expectation

Cat woman feeding cats

A self-explanatory topic, your true liberation comes when you are really, and genuinely do photography for yourself, when you are really doing it because you like it, because you love it and you don’t care about those superficial stuff that we are being fed constantly with. The amount of likes or shares won’t pay the bills. Don’t worry about your post that doesn’t even go viral. Don’t worry if you don’t have or won any award. Don’t worry if you are not making any money yet. Do what you like, create the images that make you happy, make memories and make images your life as much as possible and share it with the others. In the end of the day, all you want to achieve is that little joy when you look back at your harvest (images created) and can go to sleep soundly. For non-photographers, just focus on your art, be it writing, singing or playing in a band.

I hope this sharing is useful to you, and able to empower you. No matter how high you have reached, don’t forget your roots. Have a great week ahead!

Your Tukang Rantek,
Claudius Weson

Note: Claudius Weson is a Pichin-born tukang rantek (photographer) based in Miri, mainly doing portraiture (indoor / studio / outdoor photoshoot), weddings and event photography.

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Far away... This Ship is Taking Me Far Away...A Day Without Photography #1Far Away From The Memories of the People Who Care If I Live or Die

The Living Crow, Not Dead Yet. M10-P & APO-50

Have you ever wonder, what does it feel like when you go through a day without doing the thing you love most? It feels empty, right? As if there is a hole in your heart, that cannot be filled no matter how much you fill it with good food, or good laugh. It like a splinter in your mind. That is what my days go without taking any photos. That is why I bring my camera wherever I go. For portability, currently I go with my M10-P and APO-50 as it is the most convenient for me to bring around everywhere. You might think, Claudius is rich, Claudius has a lot of money. The truth is, there is only two types of person who bought a Leica. The first one, either you are crazy rich Asian, or you are crazy Asian (quote from my Bitcoin friend, Devon Buy). I am one of those Crazy Asian. Haha

David Liaw Says – TOO EASY!!!!!! M10-P & APO-50

Anyway, it took me a few years to go to where I am now. I start small, from Black Ice – and its cheap VGA phone that can be used to take a lot of photos. Seriously, a lot. That’s because its size is small. Now, every phone has a good camera. But I still stick to my iPhone 6 Plus because that is good enough for me. For more serious works, I just use my M.

Somebody cannot stand the sea-sick. M10-P & APO-50

Actually, now, I am away from land because of work. Time for photography is also limited. I miss the night walks around Lutong to hunt random photos despite the warning about Rabies. Now, the only animal that I can shoot around me is two crows.

 So, what can I do? I just have to keep myself open for any photographic opportunities. Even the sunset can be very beautiful from where I stand now. Yes! Praise the Lord! God is great. Now, as an advise to young photographers out there (I am still young too, still 2 year’s old in this business) – bring your camera everywhere you go. In the immortal word of Viking God – Thorsten Overgaard – Always Wear A Camera. You will never know when Inspiration will hit you. It can inspire you, it may perspire you, but most importantly, never retire from your dream. You can do anything else to make a living, but for the love of the lens and cameras and Oskar Barnack, don’t give on your dream. That’s all for now.

 

Your Leica-Man,
Claudius

Wang Anak Dari Nak Nulis CiritaThe Price of FreedomWould you pay yours?

Today is not really a good day because I have fever, and it caused my nose to run freely. Then, as I lay resting on my bed, trying to recover from my fever, this thought runs through my head freely like Usain Bolt running across the track – the Price of Freedom. Sounds like a good topic for a Hollywood blockbuster. I think it is just me trying to recover from my fever.

Wakandan Salute. Leica M10-P & APO-Summicron 50.

Freedom seems to be the word that is being spoken so much that many seems to lost its true meaning. In anime Attack on Titan/Shingeki no Kyojin, its definition varies whether you are a Marleyan or an Eldian. For Eren, an Eldian, his initial meaning of freedom is to be free from the giant walls that confines them and make them feel like a prey instead of a hunter. During colonialist time, the definition of freedom means to be free from the colonist, regardless of where you are from, and where you reside. As for Marleyan, their freedom is only when Eldian’s Paradis island is crushed, or so they think.

Definition of freedom varies from one person to another, but the fundamental idea persists – the state of being free, perhaps free from anything that is plaguing you. Nobody likes to be colonised or invaded, and everyone likes the idea to be free. Right now, I want to be free from my fever. Probably, somewhere out there someone is dreaming to be free from poverty, and someone else are dreaming of being free from their debt, and attain their financial freedom. Read More

Another Talk at CurtinCurrency of LifeWhy It Matters?

Today I was given the honour by Curtin University as I was invited by Mr Terence Tan Peng Lian, to give a talk to the first year engineering students. The talk was supposed to be only about oil and gas industry to ignite their passion in oil and gas industry. However, since it is a generic topic, I decided to make it more interesting by adding bits of motivational topic on it, which is my favourite bit.

It has been a while since I met Mary. Where did the time go? (Leica M10-P & APO-Summicron 50).

Mr Terence Tan is giving the opening speech. (Leica M10-P & APO-Summicron 50).

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